the_gneech: (Default)
From the Metaquotes LiveJournal Community...

"Why are you writing to your elected representative instead of seeking to overthrow a foreign government from your living room" is a question that I feel answers itself.


-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
Today: 293.1 lbs
down 26.4 lbs from my highest weight of 319.5 on November 25, 2016
down 25.9 lbs from my starting weight of 319 on July 1, 2014 (137 weeks)
average lost: 0.19 lbs/week
next milestone: 287 lbs (10% loss)

Reversed last week's blip up, but only a very slight nudge down from the week before it. It's been very hard to stay within points and get myself to work out this past week, opting mostly for walking instead. Will try to pick up the slack a bit this week.

-TG
the_gneech: (Default)


Rice is amazing, I'll eat anything steaming hot
Ramen and udon with pancake, this and that
Carbohydrates, carbohydrates
A dreamy collaboration
(Hot, hot, steaming hot!)

Rice is amazing, it's a problem if I don't have it
Better yet, rice should be a complete side dish
If you're from Kansai, it's all about okonomiyaki & rice

But...I'm not from Kansai
(Wait, what?!)
One, two, three, four, rice!
One, two, three, four, rice!

Rice is amazing, I'll eat anything steaming hot
Fermented cabbage and soybeans, raw egg, this and that
White rice is a pure, snowy white canvas
A fantasy imagination
(Hot, hot, steaming hot!)

Rice is amazing, it's a problem if I don't have it
Rice is a staple food, after all
If you're from Japan, it's all about rice over bread

(spoken)
"Rice isn't a side dish, you know!"
"Oh... I forgot."
"HEY!"


Rice is amazing, I'll eat anything steaming hot!
Fried noodles, octopus balls, pork wrapped in egg, this and that
Carbohydrates, carbohydrates
A dreamy collaboration
(Hot, hot, steaming hot! Let's go, let's go!)

Rice is amazing, it's a problem if I don't have it
Better yet, rice should be a complete side dish
If you're from Kansai, it's all about okonomiyaki & rice

I must have been from Kansai in a past life!
(What the hell?!)
One, two, three, four, rice!
One, two, three, four, rice!
One, two, three, four, rice!
One, two, three, four, rice!

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
Today: 295.5 lbs
down 24 lbs from my highest weight of 319.5 on November 25, 2016
down 23.5 lbs from my starting weight of 319 on July 1, 2014 (136 weeks)
average lost: 0.17 lbs/week
next milestone: 287 lbs (10% loss)

Nudged back up a little this week, bleh. Hopefully that means the next two weeks are down down. Suspect it was the pizza that did it. ¬.¬

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
I woke up in the midst of a fierce mental debate, which I can only assume my brain was already having with itself while I was asleep, on the topic of how a society inoculates itself against memetic viruses. In particular, I'm thinking of the current kerfluffle in the furry community about quasi-fascist furry groups. [1]

Fascist ideas are best compared to a virus that infects tolerant societies. The same way an actual virus uses your own body's mechanisms to invade and destroy, fascist ideas use the mechanisms by which oppressed or disenfranchised groups in a tolerant society claim their civic liberties, to co-opt, overtake, and destroy those liberties for everyone else.

A story I recently encountered (now lost to the vagaries of the internet, because there's been so much churn) illustrated this perfectly. Someone who was a bouncer in London bars back in the '80s and '90s was explaining why they had a blanket "no skinheads" policy, and it boiled down to this: one or two skinheads would come into a bar, buy their drinks, and just sit quietly. Fine. Then a couple more would come in and sit with them. Then a few more. And as long as they didn't get kicked out, they'd keep coming in until there were eight or ten or more, and then they would start harassing the other bar patrons, spewing racial epithets and other hate, and from there it was either a fight or a police raid. So the bar would kick them all out and refuse to serve them.

Then it would be quiet for a while.

Then one day, one or two skinheads would show up and say, "Look man, I don't want trouble, I just want a drink." And, in a tolerant society, the inclination is naturally to say, "Yeah, that's reasonable, okay."

But then a couple more will come in and sit down...

And so it goes. So it has gone through pretty much all of recorded history. This is why so many people have a blanket policy of "Always punch nazis." Because you can punch nazis when there are a few of them, or punch nazis when there are a lot of them, but eventually, you will have to punch nazis.

So much for the tolerant left! WHAM

There are legit problems with this stance. It's too easy to just call everyone you don't like "nazi," just for starters. One reason I've always taken people to task for throwing terms like "fascist" and "nazi" around over the past decades is that the words lose their meaning. So in 2016, when we had actual, real, not theoretical fascists marching into power, people like me who objected to this were told again and again that we were overreacting. (SPOILER: We weren't.)

But the biggest legit problem with the "always punch nazis" stance (or "always ban skinheads" or whatever variant you employ), is a matter of logical consistency. On what basis can you say that it is not just all right but is in fact a moral imperative to ostracize fascism, that can't be then turned around and made into a tool of fascism?

I call this the Cake Conundrum. I.e., if I refuse to bake a nazi-flag cake, do I have a case to be upset when someone refuses to bake a cake for a gay wedding?

The answer here is yes, and I have a reason for that answer, but it is such a super-fine line of distinction that it's very hard to make work on a societal level, because it's all about context.

A gay couple getting married are, by definition, making a commitment on how they will conduct their own behavior, and live their own lives. Their choice does not threaten anyone else.

Fascism is built on the foundational idea of exalting one chosen group at the expense of all the rest. That is inherently a threat to the rights of everyone who is not a member of that group.

In a tolerant society, the former, even if it squicks you out, doesn't hurt other people, and therefore is legit. The latter, even if it gives you perks, hurts others, and therefore is not. [2]

This is why the term "hate speech" was coined, to give a name to this distinction between "things that are socially divergent but don't actually do harm" and "things that actually harm others." On a societal level, whether you prefer to snuggle guys or gals is no different from whether you prefer stuffing or potatoes. But if you want to ostracize, enslave, or kill other people? That is different.

It is a weird contradiction that the argument boils down to "It's okay to ostracize ostracizers." And I don't think it will ever stop seeming weird. But I don't see how you can have a functional and still free society without it.

Once again, it's like the virus model. Being intolerant of intolerance is the vaccination that prevents the virus of fascism from being able to invade and destroy.

-The Gneech

(Note: Comments closed because I have better things to do than listen to the usual trolls coming out of the woodwork and trying to distract, deflect, and distort. If you want to have an honest discussion on the topic, I can be reached through private channels.)

[1] Yes, there really are such things, as bonkers as it sounds. Forgetting for a moment the extreme cognitive dissonance of "I love fluffy adorable animals, and genocide!" I don't think I'll ever understand how "I've been ostracized and it feels bad..." translates into "And now I want to do it to everyone else!"

[2] There are people, and mind you I know 'em, who are like, "Eh, fascists aren't that bad..." These people are generally white, straight, and (almost always) male. In other words, "it's not a problem for me, therefore it's not a problem." This is the definition of privilege, and it really pisses them off when you say so. But it really pisses me off when I see it, so.
the_gneech: (Default)

Three Good Things for Today


  1. Job interview/work exercise thingie seemed to go well.

  2. Randomly grouped with a fun team in Overwatch; added many of them to "prefer this player" list.

  3. Thought I was watching the final episode of K-On!– turns out there are at least two more!


Three Goals for Tomorrow


  1. Dailyburn

  2. Collect more photos and art for (secret collab project)

  3. Get in some TwitterPonies time

  4. STRETCH GOAL: More job apps out


Gnite world. Have an awesome tomorrow.

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
The other day [personal profile] inkblitz posted a little thing about seasonal depression, which prompted a thought in my mind that I wanted to observe.

I've known Blitzy for something like five years now. We were thrown together by our online RP group but pretty much immediately clicked. And while the RP group is not the focus of either of our lives any more, the friendship has endured. By the standards of, say, high school or college friendships, we're practically blood brothers. But the thing is, we met as adults– in my case, as a middle-aged adult in particular. So for me, a period of five years, while nothing to sneeze at, still counts as being "recent developments."

When we met, I was still in the darkest parts of grief, and quite often depressed; during one of my conversations with Blitzy at the time, I said that having met me after my friends and family started dying left and right, so constantly mired in grief, in many ways he hadn't met "the real me."

But when did I stop being "the real me"? How long can an extended period of grief last before that is "normal"? My father died in 2011 after a long and stressful decline; Kerry died in 2013. I met Inkblitzer somewhere between those two events, and they've cast a long shadow ever since– as have the deaths of Sandy, FrostDemn, Buddha, my aunt Iris, and my mom, and the loss of our house and jobs of 15+ years, all in the same cluster. It's not like my grief was unwarranted. ¬.¬

But recently, something has shifted in me. I'm not sure exactly how, why, or when, although I did comment on it a little while back. I have started being myself again. I still miss everyone that I've lost, and it's not like I'm feeling peachy-keen about all the crap currently going on in the world, but there's an important internal difference.

I'm fine in the moment. I'm thinking about where I am and what I'm doing, instead of thinking about how much pain I'm in or what I've lost. The emotional wounds, as it were, seem to have scarred over. This manifests mostly in a better mood, a sunnier outlook, and a lighter, more playful approach to just about everything. I'm back to treating life like a party or an adventure, rather a slog that I have to just keep pushing through. When I think of "the real me," that's what I think of, the guy who wants to make everything more awesome, not the guy who is stubbornly refusing to give in and just sink to the bottom.

I mentioned to Blitzy that I was finally the real me again; he said, "I think I met the real you enough. At least at conventions. But yeah, I'm seeing more of convention you in general."

So I wonder. Maybe "the real me" isn't a fixed point, so much as an aggregation, and the me that was fighting through all that crap was "really" me too, me bearing the weight of what I was going through. But it still feels like being a different person.

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)

Three Good Things for Today


  1. Walked around the lake at Rio with [personal profile] laurie_robey.

  2. Got to watch another K-On! ep. <3

  3. Art stream. :)

  4. BONUS GOOD THING! Another 2 lbs down. :)


(I was originally going to list "beautiful weather," but this one is a bit of a mixed bag because while yeah, it was beautiful, the only reason it was beautiful is because the ecosystem is hosed. February should be crap around here.)

Three Goals for Tomorrow


  1. Another art stream to finish page 14.

  2. DailyBurn.

  3. Write on [secret collab project].


Gnite world, and have an awesome tomorrow. <3

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
Today: 293.9 lbs
down 25.6 lbs from my highest weight of 319.5 on November 25, 2016
down 25.1 lbs from my starting weight of 319 on July 1, 2014 (135 weeks)
average lost: 0.19 lbs/week
next milestone: 287 lbs (10% loss)

All the peculiar little hollows where excess fat starts showing up are starting to empty out again– things like pudgy hands, swollen ankles, the sides of my stomach, etc. The insidious thing about it is, as my weight was creeping back up, I didn't notice when these things were filling in, and that amazes me. A lifetime of being overweight just sorta conditioned me to think of that as "normal" I guess?

Well, I've seen the difference now, and I ain't going back.

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
In the spirit of keeping calm and carrying on, have a random check-in with the mundane things in life.

Job Hunt


In my quest to return to a more traditional job for a while, I have been sending out job applications right and left since sometime in December, and they have started to bear fruit. Two weeks ago I had a phone interview that seemed to go very well, and the interviewer said they would recommend me to the next rung up and that I should expect to hear shortly. This has not happened, causing the interviewer some confusion as the next person up said they were contacting me.

So, a bit of confusion there. Fortunately, they aren't the only fish in the sea! I had another interview yesterday with a different company who (should all things go well) would provide a very nice salary and benefits, as well as a relocation stipend, which would come in very handy. The interviewer for the second company says the hiring process typically takes 2-4 weeks, so that could be done by the end of February.

Fuwa Fuwa Time


I am nearing the end of the main series of K-On! and I love the hell out of this show. Besides the fact that it's funny as all get out, every time I finish an episode I want to round up all of my friends and just hug the heck out of them. It just perfectly captures that ephemeral feeling of realizing you have to live in the moment, because that's all you really have and it will quickly be gone.

It has also made me reflect on what a mess my own childhood was, how it could have gone differently, and how I could have reacted better to the circumstances I was in. Of course I was a child at the time, so I had no frame of reference to realize what a mess it was, so I'm not going to beat myself up about it, just do my best to learn from it.

Shoes By the Door


Speaking of things Japanese, [personal profile] laurie_robey and I have adopted the habit of taking off our shoes at the door and changing to slippers to wear around the house. The reasons are purely pragmatic– we keep squelching in the mud here and tracking it into the house and we don't want to have to keep cleaning the rug– but it does produce an interesting psychological shift as well, making home seem more "homey." I wasn't expecting that.

We're still getting used to it– for the first few weeks particularly I kept putting on my shoes to go out and then realizing I'd left all the lights on and had to go tromping on the rug to turn them off, defeating the purpose. -.- But, as I needed new shoes anyway, I picked up some comfy Sketchers loafers that are easy to slip on and off, making the change of shoes a much quicker and easier process than it was before. So far I'm liking it.

No Mercy


That's it for now. Have an Overwatch fan vid.


-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)

There she is– Tiffany Tiger!


So, Suburban Jungle launched 18 years ago today. Thanks to the strange time-dilation effect of comics, that puts Rough Housing as due to start happening around 2019 to put Charity at the right age. XD


It’s been a long strange trip and I’m very grateful for all the friends, fans, and extended family I’ve made along the way. Thank you very much!


-The Gneech

the_gneech: (Default)


Currently my morale-booster of choice. I expect to have a lot of thoughts about K-On! once I finish the series, but until then I'm just savoring the ride.

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)


-TG
the_gneech: (Default)
Today: 295.9 lbs
down 23.6 lbs from my highest weight of 319.5 on November 25, 2016
down 23.1 lbs from my starting weight of 319 on July 1, 2014
average lost: 0.17 lbs/week
next milestone: 287 lbs (10% loss)

Didn't just break the 300 barrier, smashed through it like a wrecking ball. Awww yeah! Let's see if I can hit that 10% milestone by the end of February.

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)


Inkblitzer and I give “Capture the Flag” a whirl– and win!


-The Gneech

the_gneech: (Default)

Commission prices by type and size.

(click through for full size)


Trying to make my prices a little more easy-to-calculate and a little less “pulled a number out of Buster’s shell.” 😀 Subscribers to my Patreon get a 5% discount.


When not at conventions, I can still sell the books and buttons but they’re easier to get through their respective publishers:


Books: http://furplanet.com/shop/category.aspx?catid=196


Buttons: https://snerksandquirks.com/


Enjoy! 🙂


-The Gneech

the_gneech: (Default)

Three Good Things For Today


  1. Beautiful sunny day! (Finally!)

  2. A very generous tip from a livestream viewer. Thank you very much!

  3. Movement on one of the interviews! A minor shift, but still progress. I'll take it!


Three Goals For Tomorrow


  1. DailyBurn

  2. Work on the Wonder Woman copics pic.

  3. Work on [secret collaborative project].


Gnite world, and have an awesome tomorrow!

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)
As you may know, I've been sending off lots of job applications. As you may not know, some of those have yielded interviews. As of this writing, I am partially through the interview gauntlet on two different positions, which is a hopeful sign that employment is right around the corner... but it ain't here yet. XD I'm going to keep sending off apps until something materializes, tho.

In other news, an unpublished Michael Macbeth story which has been languishing in publication heck for (mumble) years was freed last night when I received official word that the anthology it had been accepted for was canceled. I haven't decided what to do with it yet; my first choice of the next market won't really work, so I might toss it up on Patreon or something, but it has to be in a paying venue.

Thoughts? Suggestions? I'd love to hear 'em!

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)


Someone tossed this at me in last night's art stream. XD

-The Gneech
the_gneech: (Default)

How I Changed My Life by Remembering Who I Was Before the Pain


If you have a hard time believing in yourself, remember who you were before the world taught you to doubt yourself. Don’t see yourself through the eyes of those who didn’t see value in you. Know your worth even if they didn’t. All you need is already within you. You just have to dig deep and find it.

You are beautiful and worthy, and you are one decision away from creating the life you’ve always dreamed of living.


-TG

February 2017

S M T W T F S
    12 34
5 67 891011
12 131415 161718
19 20 2122232425
262728    

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Feb. 22nd, 2017 01:41 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios