Step Outside, Take a Deep Breath, Start Over

[the_gneech]

We're in the depths of summer.

People and events are flying at me left and right trying to eat up time doing this, doing that, going here, going there, every weekend and frequently on weekday nights for the next sixty weeks or more.

Too many people around here (by which I mean my physical location, not LiveJournal) are rock-stupid.

Any one of these is enough to make me stress out. Two of them in combination are enough to make me grouchy. All three combine into a serum potent enough to turn me into Mr. Hyde. But, as I spent pretty much all of yesterday and most of this morning with Mr. Hyde way too close to the surface, it is now officially time to chill.

I have no respect for people who can't be pleasant or at least civil to others who've done them no wrong. There are people, and mind you I know 'em, who think that whatever mood they may be in trumps manners, and will happily act like a total shit to people who should be their friends. Many (if not most) people are like this as kids, but most of us also outgrow it by the end of puberty.

I well know that being pleasant when you feel like crud takes a lot of energy, doubly so for introverts. And when I feel Mr. Hyde coming to the surface like he has been the past couple of days, I immediately recognize that as a sign of being too tired to keep him locked down in the dungeon where he belongs. But as I say, I have no respect for people who just let their Hydes out -- and that includes myself on those occasions when I fail.

So in order to retain my self-respect, it is time to step back, force myself to relax and rejuvenate a little, then kick Mr. Hyde in the junk and shove him down the stairs again. My mood does not trump manners, and it is the worst kind of selfishness to act like it does.

-The Gneech

Comments

[sirfox.livejournal.com]

ugh, i can understand that. i often spend much of my emotional day standing on the trapdoor that The Beast keeps hammering at from underneath.

I'm gonna schedule myself a good massage, soon. I need one. Also, exercizing until exhaustion seems to help. Pleasantness or Nastiness, it all takes energy.

[invisiblewolf.livejournal.com]

I have no respect for people who can't be pleasant or at least civil to others who've done them no wrong. There are people, and mind you I know 'em, who think that whatever mood they may be in trumps manners, and will happily act like a total shit to people who should be their friends. Many (if not most) people are like this as kids, but most of us also outgrow it by the end of puberty.

I know exactly what you mean.

-Spiritwolf.

[hantamouse.livejournal.com]

Mr. Hyde has to come out from time to time, or he'll destroy you from the inside a piece at a time.
(Other people don't have to be around)

[kamau-d-lyon.livejournal.com]

You're a step ahead of a lot of people by recognizing that you're about to let the beast out. You are also doing something about it. Both show you know how to handle it. Yes, people can be idiots and it seems every day our society loses just a little more of its manners and civil behavior. You've got the plan and I encourage you to put it into action.

I'll say for myself I know exactly how you feel. You know what I do and you've seen my Emo entries in my LJ. I have to deal with the idiots of society on several levels and at times my own beast comes all too near the surface. So close at times that he reaches through the bars and claws some people who really don't deserve it. Doing what you have said, pulling back and getting some R&R is about the only way to keep the beast in check.

Good luck with getting Mr. Hyde back in his place.

[carlfoxmarten]

I know what you mean, I have to deal with one of them practically all day, everyday.

It's made even worse due to the fact that he's my dad...

[c-eagle.livejournal.com]

Hear Hear! ^V^