What Was I Saying...?

Name: Marianne (I also don't mind being referred to as Kitty, short for one of my main online aliases, Ancapikitty.)

Age: 41

Location: Northeast coast of the U.S.

About Me: Well, there's a LOT I could say about myself, but I'll just briefly describe my current life as is! I have been going through a lot over the past two years. I have been going through some really trying times. I have my own complex and personal spiritual connection with God but I am not heavily religious. He knows that I haven't been entirely happy in life lately, and I sometimes still have my moments in which I feel heartache and frustration over uncertainties, and doing all I can to steer clear from despairing... Thankfully, I have this really creative side to myself that gives me escape whenever reality feels too painful and unforgiving. Whenever I need to vent or express my inner emotional storms, or thoughts that just won't go away entirely.

Music and creativity is a healing and coping tool for my very sensitive heart and soul.

About My Journal: Lately I've been using this blog of mine over Google Docs to write out music style prompts and song lyrics, without having to worry about taking up too much space for my Google Drive. I keep a bunch of my songs stored on it, and I often listen to them from my phone. I share my songs with friends that way. And I often share them with my friends online as well.

What I Write: Sometimes I vent when I need to about whatever it is in my life that weighs me down or stresses me too much. Other times I write out songs that either help spread awareness to others about real-world issues that should be addressed, or just me expressing my thoughts about things I strongly think are so crazy-backwards and self-destructive things. (AKA, Liberty-Minded Tunes. I haven't been writing anything new in that area, but I have been remastering some of my favorites at times. My latest remaster is of and old song, a satirical as well as a critical stab at a very collectivist, socialist and communistic organization. It's a lengthy commercial jingle of a song. UNESCO rhymes with the old snack company, Nabisco. That's why the song is styled like that, lol)

I also have been writing a lot of songs centered around fictional characters. I recently used my Suno persona of this eldritch goddess of insanity, Xel'lotath, to make a new song that would be very in-character to her very, very awful and horrifying schemes. (This old and revived/renewed muse is the one who ENABLED me to get into the Suno personas.) Have a listen! Suno did a great job in making sure that her secondary, more chilling whispery voice is included. Xelly here is the one in charge of a 4-member Cosmic Horror/Psychological Horror music group that I decided to call "Team Insanity". I have a playlist that is meant to be ongoing for them. I already finished my epic and awesome Xel'lotath Album. (I'm a diehard fan of this old 2000's video game known as Eternal Darkness: Sanity's Requiem. That album is my own custom soundtrack of Xelly, her creatures, her emissary, and other game lore. Even a funny song about the 4th wall breaks that occur, whenever a playable protagonist's sanity meter is very low.)

I have others, two others that are apart from Team Insanity; a Kirby and an really gentle and enigmatic ancient spirit of an original character, named Necrosan. I'll get back to them when I feel very inspired to. My own interpretation of that cute pink Nintendo character is a very cutesy and silly friend who is looking forward to his own "music career". The Necrosan songs are like chapters in a story about him, from his own narrative. Very interesting!

What I Don't Write: Pointless drivel, or content that lacks substance or doesn't carry any meaning for me. And, sexually explicit stuff is also not an interest of mine.

What I Have Been Reading: Most currently, I have been reading this manga series known as The Promised Neverland! It's a mix of cute and fantasy thriller/suspense. These kids have escaped from a place that appeared to be an orphanage on the surface level when in truth, they discovered the horrible secret that Grace Field House has been a place to raise and nurture children to be shipped off as food for demons. The oldest among them are really smart.

I have felt most drawn to the character Norman. He's a bit like me; being a sharp, smart strategist and very caring soul. But I'm not very good at math the way he is though, lol. (I might have a Norman Suno persona in the near future! Oh gosh that would be so cool.)


I would love to connect with kindred spirits! I yearn to write creatively with others, with these characters of mine. (Story writing or RP writing, or just coming up with song lyrics together--that'd be fun.) I have been riding on this creative momentum that's been uplifting and exciting for me. Let's have a grand time. Let's brainstorm! Let's experiment! My own ideas tend to be very big and crazy at times.