An Apology

[the_gneech]

I have not been myself lately. Or more accurately, I've not been the version of myself I want to be.

I've been quite stressed for some time, and over that time it has been progressively, but steadily, grinding me into someone that I hardly recognize and don't much like. It has also wrought havoc on my health, leaving me weak, gaining weight, and now looking at skyrocketing blood pressure.

Well, a wise guy once said, "When you find you're digging youself into a hole-- stop digging!" So that's what I intend to do. Today, I stop digging.

Attitude will be adjusted. Thoughts and behaviors will be examined and modified. I will find the me I want to be and start moving in that direction.

In the meantime, I apologize for my behavior of late. I'm not normally by nature a ranty guy. I'm not normally by nature a complainy guy. I'm not normally by nature an angry guy.

I'm sorry if I've come off ranty/complainy/angry lately, and I'm sorry if it's put you off. I'm going to fix it, and I'm going to fix me.

Thanks for listening.

-The Gneech

Comments

[fastclaw.livejournal.com]

We all have our up days and down days man. We're only human and we have emotions; there's nothing wrong with expressing them. What's better, expressing yourself or bottling stuff up and then exploding later and disappearing feeling bad that ya popped off?

People accept you for being you mang.

Stay cool!

-FC

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

I need to find a way to redirect my emotions into something positive, instead of feeding on and reinforcing the negative. :)

-TG

[fastclaw.livejournal.com]

Get a punching bag, treadmill, or an elliptical machine. Staying in shape will always keep ya positive and up-beat.

-FC

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Yeah, exercise is something that must start happening again, as soon as the resp. infection goes away.

-TG

[kylet.livejournal.com]

Staying in shape will always keep ya positive and up-beat.
Don't I wish!

[kylet.livejournal.com]

You call that ranty? Your ranty is more polite than 99% of the internet.
In other words, you reaaaally have nothing to apologize for. But if it makes you feel better, so be it! :hugs:

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Well, there's more offline. :) And some of it is in my head, too. :)

-TG

[makovette.livejournal.com]

Gneech is obviously Canadian when he's in a ranty mood :)

Mako

PS: What Kylet said :)

[radbaron.livejournal.com]

I'm Canadian, and I approve of The_Gneech's Canadian-rantinesses :)

Get the rants out of your head. They feed and grow in there, until they become so big they take over the place. When it's written down (even if never published), you can look at what is bothering you, and take those steps to correct it. You might be surprised what comes out when written down.

[sirfox.livejournal.com]

Yaes. get them out, or they fester.

[maxgoof.livejournal.com]

You're not nearly as ranty, angry, angsty as I am.

[kyyanno.livejournal.com]

*hugsya* we all have up and down days, don't worry about it! I know what it's like to be going through a negative period, at least you've recognised it and are taking steps to help yourself out of it.

As you once said to be, you know where I am if you need to chat :)

[jamesbarrett.livejournal.com]

Wow, I like totally did not see that coming :P I'll get back to ya when you find yourself again then ;)

[invisiblewolf.livejournal.com]

Wait...you mean all that art of yours recently that I've liked...that was...was...FRAUDULENT??

*sob*

;-)

Seriously...hadn't noticed, other than the Trek rant, which I thought was an interesting discussion. Always good to fine-tune oneself, though...I try to do that every now and again, as well. :-)

-Spiritwolf.