Last Day of the Rest of My Life?

[the_gneech]

Hard to believe that February 13 was just three and a half months ago -- I feel like I've been working at Starbucks for a year! And tomorrow's my last day.

It's taking a bit of time for the idea to sink in. Starbucks was simultaneously a life-saver, and a killer. It's a big, huge, momentous thing, leaving this job that I only just started in February. It's had that profound an impact on the course of my life lately.

There is a certain strange appropriateness that I am leaving Starbucks at the same time that all the schools are letting out. Seniors are graduating, junior years are going into summer vacation ... and tonight I watched Harry Potter again, on the new DVD that just came out. In many ways I feel like the departure from Starbucks is symbolic of the end of a very difficult period of my life, going all the way back to the onset of my depression ... hopefully I am "graduating" to better things.

It's interesting, actually, how my life has come around in a circle, no pun intended. The upside is that I am no longer in debt; the downside is that I went through a major emotional and identity crisis and many hours of pain, hard labor, and emotional torment.

How am I now, that it's all done?

Happy, actually ... optimistic about the future, a little beat up, but a lot more at home in my own soul. Having gone through what I basically spent my life avoiding, having faced the demons I was afraid to face and survived, and having experienced the things I wouldn't allow myself to experience, I am finally ready to start moving forward and live a life of my own choosing, rather than just going where-ever I end up when running away from something else.

I know, sounds vague and kinda melodramatic. :) But that's okay ... you're reading my journal, for crying out loud. The only person it needs to make sense to, is myself.

G'nite, everybody, and have a great tomorrow. I sure will. :)

-The Gneech

Comments

[jamesbarrett.livejournal.com]

*trys to comment, but is too emotional to do so* -Frisk

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[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Mew? -TG

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[jamesbarrett.livejournal.com]

I get emotional over stuff like this. Mutt was watching Harry Potter and I was wiping away tears because neville was awarded points. Your post fits into that category for me. *weep weep Happy weep* -Frisk

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[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Silly sentimental puppy! -TG

[blacktigr.livejournal.com]

*grin*

Gneech-ness is movin' on from Starbucks. We are all very glad for you, and hope (selfishly) that this new job allows you more creative freedom. Not guilt-tripping or anything, but I miss my favorite comic.

It's always good to see a happy Gneech.

[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Well, happy graduation!

And it does sound like about the same rites of passage as one goes through in college... :) So now you have a masters degree from the School of Hard Knocks. :)

*Sob!* I'm so proud!!!

:)

Go LI-ON!, Go LI-ON!

[snapcat.livejournal.com]

Gneech! MY GOODNESS that was melodramatic?? *tugs yer tail* But I know that you are a mellow guy, and us big cats just can't HELP the dra-ma side.

Goodbye Starbucks! the free refills that aren't earned, the Mocha choca-latas, and biscotti that is 'god knows' how many years old.

*rolls out the red carpet for your exit*

Re: Go LI-ON!, Go LI-ON!

[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Hey, another white tiger what luvs Da Gneech!

[level-head.livejournal.com]

It is a good thing, this moving forward.

Know that you've got a lot of good folks behind you. Sometimes we cheer. Sometimes we push. Sometimes we are, I suspect, a pain in the butt. But you have, my friend, quite a following.

We will be, of course, most interested in your report tomorrow. I hope that it will be a goodly auspicious day.

===|==============/ Level Head

Re: Go LI-ON!, Go LI-ON!

[snapcat.livejournal.com]

You can say that :) you can definately say that.

Re: Go LI-ON!, Go LI-ON!

[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Pleased to meetcha. *Offers to shake paws.* Care for a bird?

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[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Just went to your website-- nice linkage here in choice of pics. :)

A Bird?

[snapcat.livejournal.com]

is it a tasty chicken? or what kinda bird we talkin? Peacock? ;)
(adds you to friends list.. always need more tiger ;)

One way to look at all of this...

[kelloggs2066.livejournal.com]

I'll bet someone will have already told you this, but:

These little adventures have to be viewed in the best light you can put them in.

Sometimes that best light is:
"Hey, I can always use this for comic strip material!"

Even when you've just dropped an anvil on your foot. ;)

So take it easy, Man!

Scott

Look at my avatar.

[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

I don't remember. It wasn mentioned in the photo credit. I think it's something rather rare, which is why it's so comical that the kitten is eating it.

[murrrmaiyd.livejournal.com]

If it's any consolation, I also wept when Neville was awarded points! :)

Mur

Woohoo!

[murrrmaiyd.livejournal.com]

Woohoo! No more Starbucks! Hooray for Gneech! I hope your new job brings you days filled with much less stress! Not to mention less physical pain...no drive-thru window to bash your head on!! :)

Mur

Hooray for you!

[tygermoonfoxx.livejournal.com]

Good luck with your new position. I hope it brings you steady income, joy, and the time you need to do the things you really like and care about.

Side note --- I was in Walgreens getting my medications refilled when I detoured through the toy aisle. They had Keroberos plushies that talked and ALL of the characters in doll form. Have you seen them yet? I figured you'd at least have a Keroberos.

oh dear.

[katsunewolf.livejournal.com]

There multiplying..

^~Kat

Yay!

[katsunewolf.livejournal.com]

*throws Catnip Confetti*
Wtg, Bro!

Every path has its hurdles.
We all say we want a happy, love goin life, but we need down times for some base reasions. To learn new things we didnt think of before, to gain new veiw points, and most importantly, To better feel the good stuff.

Without pain, sorrow, and agrivation, we have no contrast point that gives Pleasure, joy, an comprihension its "Umf". Y'know?

So mark this day, a transition has been made to the future! What ever it shall be, your friends shall see it through with you to the bitter end, Huzzuh an Grope hugs!

....group hugs..

^~Kat

I know the feeling...

[punktiger.livejournal.com]

...but not as intimately as you right now. My first two jobs were rather hellish for me. One was a "phone solicitor" for some charity group. I lasted all of 1.5 days there. My second job was in a restaurant called "Elvira J's". I still have emotional/physical scars from that place... and I was only there for a month in 1983. Then there was that four month stint at a local Wal*Mart in 1996, but I'm not going to go that route.

I'm glad you've found the strength to move on and open a new chapter in your life. Here's to hoping this is the start of something wonderful.. or, at least, something more pleasant. ;)

Peace (you've earned it);
- PunkTiger!

Re: oh dear.

[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Mwu-ha-ha-ha!

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[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Hmm ... I missed this the first time around!

But yes, one of the Kero plushies lives in the house. :) Technically, tho, he belongs to Mrs. Gneech. -TG