In Which Grind Becomes Drag

[the_gneech]

The irony of "we didn't make enough money therefore we have a huge tax bill" makes me bang my head on the desk. And again, we've got the savings to cover it (in the form of retirement funds burning up), but we have reached the point where being unemployed has ceased to be a nuisance and become a serious problem. I have until now been concentrating my efforts on finding a job out in CA to facilitate going out there, but at this point, I don't feel like I can afford that luxury any more.

Not that there have been a whole lot of job prospects around here either; the election of Lord Dampnut has been a huge blow to most of the major job sectors around here except Murder Incorporated, and I'm not interested in joining that particular industry.

However, I am now opening my long-term job search up to other cities that have some appeal but were previously not under consideration, such as Richmond, Pittsburgh, and Boston. In the shorter term, I am going to spend the upcoming week hunting down and connecting to temp agencies, something which has had mixed results in the past– but mixed results are better than no results at all.

I'm frustrated and disgusted by the whole thing. What started out as feeling like life was taking unwanted turns some years ago, now feels like the wheels have completely come off and I'm just watching the wreck in slow motion. But there's no readily visible course of action to take to fix it, and honestly, there are no decisions made in the past I could point to that could have prevented it, either. The choices we made all along were the best ones with the information available to us at the time. So there aren't even lessons to be learned about it. There's just keeping calm and dragging on.

Drag, drag, drag.

-The Gneech

Comments

[inkblitz]

Sometimes the reason that the doors close is to force you to refocus on other doors that you might not have been paying enough attention to. Like there's this thing you want so much, but to get there there's all these steps that you need to take first. Only you don't see those steps because your focus is on the end goal and not what it takes to get there.

I know it sucks and that you really wanted to go to California, but maybe you're just not meant to go there yet? I dunno. =/ It sucks, and I wish I could help you out somehow. It's not so bad on the east coast, maybe it'll be easier on you if you move to one of those more liberal areas?

[the_gneech]

With the possible exception of certain chunks of New England, it doesn't really get much more liberal than Maryland, especially on the east coast. So, that's not the problem. :) What I want from California is sunshine and breathable summers, which are kind of exclusive to out there. But really at this stage, I'm inclined to go to wherever a job materializes.

-TG