i've used it all up

[the_gneech]

EDIT: The following is the sort of thing my mind goes through during one of my mood crashes; writing it was therapeutic for me at the time, I figure reading it might be so for someone else.

i've used it all up
there is no more there
it just doesn't matter
i just don't care

it never ends
there's always more
what was once a joy
is now a chore

i pushed the stone
to the top of the hill
it just rolled back down
it just makes me ill

i struggled and fought
and i planned and then
after all that effort
i'm back here again

i feel as if
i'm under a curse
i try to improve things
and it makes them worse

but i take a deep breath
and i ride it through
and i wait it out
and i start out new

because i've often observed
watching various lives
that often he who wins
is the one who survives

so i keep on going
i don't have to care
i just have to continue
and hope that time will repair