FEH! 'n' Stuff

[the_gneech]

Last night I had a crash ... one of those "run out of energy, run out of patience, life sucks, just get me into bed and let me sleep" moments that used to be so common when I was still in my depression, but have been fewer and further between as of late. The problem with those is that when you go to sleep that tired, you often wake up just as tired, and so it was with me today. I had to drag myself out of bed, shove breakfast down my throat, mentally lash myself into doing my pushups and crunches, etc. I think it's a testament to stubbornness more than anything else that I managed to get through my morning routine and only be forty minutes late. :P

Well, one thing I learned from fighting the depression, is that happiness can be a choice. Not always, but sometimes, if the mood isn't caused by anything specific but is just bad brain juice, it's possible to exercise your willpower to make the brain juice change. Sleep helps, but when even sleep by itself doesn't do the job, you have to tell yourself, "No, dammit, life is GOOD and I'm going to enjoy it, I don't care what my stupid brain juice says!"

It's said that depression is anger turned inward -- and if that's the case, then turning it back into anger can be effective in getting rid of it. It makes me ANGRY that bad wiring in my brain wants me to be upset when I've got a good life -- and I'm going to be happy JUST TO SPITE IT!

And almost like magic, the bad brain juice turns into a whimpering, whipped little thing that cowers in a corner of my mind saying, "Don't hurt me, I'm sorry!"

And suddenly, I can laugh again. :)

Life is good. :)

-The Gneech

Comments

[huskyteer.livejournal.com]

It makes me ANGRY that bad wiring in my brain wants me to be upset when I've got a good life -- and I'm going to be happy JUST TO SPITE IT!

*applauds* I'm a depressive, and I'm adding this to my Memories. It sounds as though you're doing really well.

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

*grins*

Thanks! And thanks for the art you sent, I love it!

-TG

[huskyteer.livejournal.com]

*beams* Yay!

[rowyn]

Yah! Go get that brain, Gneech! You show it who's boss. :)

[haikujaguar.livejournal.com]

An inspiring post! :)

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

-TG

[tchall.livejournal.com]

Yeah! That's the way, use that magic can of whupass on that bad brain juice. :)

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Rarrrr!

-TG

Good for you!

[mooivos.livejournal.com]

Let's hear it for the power of positive thinking! It may not be able to change everything, but as you point out, it can certainly change a lot for the better! Have a great day! :)

Re: Good for you!

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Thanks! You too!

-TG

[bauske.livejournal.com]

*gives you a boxer-style shoulder massage*

'Atta boy! Now get out dere and take on da woild, champ!

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

*pops in the Gorillaz*

Thanks! ;) I think the windmills are weakening!

-TG

[maxgoof.livejournal.com]

"I think the windmills are weakening."

*LOL*

Quote of the month, my friend. Quote of the month!

[the-gneech.livejournal.com]

Glad you like it! But I can't take the credit for it, that belongs to Bob Newhart. :)

-The Gneech

[maxgoof.livejournal.com]

It's still a great quote.

[maxgoof.livejournal.com]

Well done, sir!

o/~ I get knocked down, but I get up again, you're never gonna get me down o/~

Someone close to me described this as defiant optimism.

Once you learn it, its astounding how often you can be happy in spite of how you feel.

[tygermoonfoxx.livejournal.com]

Know what you mean...of course, it would help if I'd bother going to bed at a decent hour and not forgetting important things like medications and my sleep mask :P

I meant to thank you for the comment on my artwork but spaced it. It meant a lot that you'd bothered to look at it. I'm hoping to do more (have to, the next exchange has started) and get better as I go.

Carpe Cerebellum! Sieze The Brain!

[kelloggs2066.livejournal.com]

Look out! It's the Big Bad Brain From Planet Arous!



Take THAT, Brain!

Just remember: No evil brain can withstand being wacked with a fire axe.