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the_gneechNot gonna lie. Sometimes I get burned out on being at the leading edge of creation. -.-
"What? You, a life coach and everything? Say it ain't so!" I know, crazy, right?
I mean, I've been making some amazing strides in clearing out old blocks, smoothing out the rough edges of my personality, and weeding out ways of being that don't serve me. But it has been a ton of work and has not yet completely translated into putting food on the table.
I was already wrestling with the fact that so many of my goals and motivations have recently been coming from a place of avoidance rather than desire, and trying to shift that piece into a more powerful place. And then, last week, the flu shot made me sick.
As of today, I am mostly recovered from that, but dang, I'm still exhausted. I need some time off from creating new realities, from declaring and fulfilling, and from personal growth spurts. I need some time where I'm receiving, consuming, and taking it easy. In short, I need a vacation.
The hard part is reconciling that with the income piece. Money keeps jumping out from behind things and yelling "Boo!" and it's hard to relax while watching those life savings dwindle. On the other hand, in my current burned-out state it's hard to muster up the motivation to go DO something about it. I look at finding some kind of day job, and go "meh." I stare at stacks of business cards to do cold calls, and go "meh."
So... yeah. Sometimes even Princess Poppy [1] gets worn out. It happens to the best of us.
But I'll find a way through it. I've been excited and inspired before, and I know I can get there again. I'm just taking a moment to acknowledge where I am rather than pretending it doesn't exist. The next step, is doing something about it.
[1] As I've been dubbed by Zia and Sirfox.
"What? You, a life coach and everything? Say it ain't so!" I know, crazy, right?
I mean, I've been making some amazing strides in clearing out old blocks, smoothing out the rough edges of my personality, and weeding out ways of being that don't serve me. But it has been a ton of work and has not yet completely translated into putting food on the table.
I was already wrestling with the fact that so many of my goals and motivations have recently been coming from a place of avoidance rather than desire, and trying to shift that piece into a more powerful place. And then, last week, the flu shot made me sick.
As of today, I am mostly recovered from that, but dang, I'm still exhausted. I need some time off from creating new realities, from declaring and fulfilling, and from personal growth spurts. I need some time where I'm receiving, consuming, and taking it easy. In short, I need a vacation.
The hard part is reconciling that with the income piece. Money keeps jumping out from behind things and yelling "Boo!" and it's hard to relax while watching those life savings dwindle. On the other hand, in my current burned-out state it's hard to muster up the motivation to go DO something about it. I look at finding some kind of day job, and go "meh." I stare at stacks of business cards to do cold calls, and go "meh."
So... yeah. Sometimes even Princess Poppy [1] gets worn out. It happens to the best of us.
But I'll find a way through it. I've been excited and inspired before, and I know I can get there again. I'm just taking a moment to acknowledge where I am rather than pretending it doesn't exist. The next step, is doing something about it.
[1] As I've been dubbed by Zia and Sirfox.
